The last few weeks have been crazy in terms of Covid spread in India with almost everyone getting symptoms like fever, cough, fatigue, etc. My house was no different with mom catching fever and then the kiddo. One thing we did bother doing was the covid test as we assumed it is +ve and took precautions.
Managing to get a booster dose for parents gave the confidence of fighting it and mom recovered in a couple of days. I had managed not to get any symptoms for the past 2 yrs thanks to my luck and an active lifestyle. It looked the same this time also. Even though I had an itchy throat for a month, nothing else happened.
Everything changed early last week. A sudden pile of work changed my exercise and work routine. Tuesday especially was so busy, I had to work on 3 presentations/reports that were all critical and needed coordinating with a lot of people. The first time I felt very stressed in the last few months and my brain was in overdrive. I somehow managed to complete it after 16 hrs straight slogging but it had a toll on me. I was so high on adrenaline, my brain did not want to rest even after 11pm. I ended up with no sleep and there it was, fever and all covid symptoms. I was so brain fucked for the next couple of days and did not find the mental strength to do anything. My childhood hallucinations due to fever were back after many years.
That is when I realized the connection between your mental strength and covid. For 2 yrs I stayed clear of it and within 1 day I managed to catch it. Stress plays a way bigger part in this. No wonder wave 2 had so many casualties. People were scared of it and going to ICU made it worse. I have spent a couple of months visiting ICU when dad was ill a few yrs back and the atmosphere there is pretty grim.
Imagine being in ICU during covid:
- things change around even day. Some recovering which puts doubt on your situation and some dying which scares the shit out of you
- lack of oxygen is like someone is strangling you
- mad rush which means no one is talking to you and counseling which is very important
- no family or friends around to comfort you
- no phone or anything to connect with the outside world
This is a super combination for disaster and that is what we saw. Thousands of died many of whom were young healthy people. Most last rights were done without their loved ones bidding them goodbye 😭
My biggest takeaway from last week is to look at mental stress and physical fitness. Not being in the right frame of mind, beating up yourself, overthinking, overworking especially creating stress can escalate the smallest of health issues. Being honest to yourself, speaking your mind, being grateful toward what you have, and accepting being vulnerable has helped me to deal with my demons better. I might have pissed off a few people and lost credibility, but I know they will come around. I still managed to be completely low last week and actually let it happen naturally. Sometimes accepting a low period and going through it is important to feel OK, resisting is not always good.
Overall, trying to be happy does help a lot and it is ok if there are days when you are not. It does not define your life, things will change. If you are feeling low, do talk to ur loved ones and people who care for you. You are very important to many people, let them help you and take care of you. Hold on to the smallest of things that make you happy and grow it. The key is to get mentally strong and feel good about your life. One thing covid has taught is having clear air in your lungs is a good enough reason to be happy and calm.
It takes me back to a few words I heard last year:
Choti si zindagi hai, Har baat par kush raho,
Jo chehra pass na ho, Uski awaaz mein kush raho,
Jo laut kar nahi aane wale, Uski yaad mein kush raho,
Kal kisne dekha hai, Apne aaj me kush raho!!
Covid will pass if you face it with calm and mental strength. Love thyself, you are worth it 💓💓
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